In these essays, I attempt to build two committed relationships at once when no one involved has done it before; develop a powerful bond with the woman my partner loves; sit through a tense Thanksgiving Dinner with my religious in-laws; question the need for rules and hierarchy in my relationships; experience the intensity of a triad; wrestle with the fragility baked into the nuclear family after my father’s stroke; and explore my queerness and gender identity in English, in New York, and struggle to reconcile my newfound self in my native French-Canadian language and culture.